Huogt Chronicles Vol 5

Rant

1. There's this issue that's already been resolved yet still making branches of different versions and I want to disregard it but it's putting my relationship with other people in jeopardy. What is this?

2. I am happy that other people comfort me but I'm already afraid that time will come that they will not care anymore. And some people are pretending that they care but in the end they will be the one to pull you down. Trust is very difficult to earn anymore.

Rave

1. Someone told me last night that you came for work, so love your workplace and do your job and don't listen to those hearsay. Thank God she listened to me before making conclusions, I know she's not perfect but I hope everyone is like her seeking for first hand information and not just depending on handed over information that are error prone.

2. I was able to sleep last night despite my worries because I prayed and a thought came in. Who are they to put me down? I graduated with Latin honor, I'm a college debater of the year and a scholar of a government bank. I have proven my self a lot of time in the past. I might be inexperience but I am smart enough to adapt. I don't know if blending in is appropriate but if that's what would make me survvie then bring it on. I will not quit,just like a kind ate once said, have faith, you'll get through this.

Prayer,

Almighty, please make things okay and make me happy. Keep my clients safe and me as well. Help me do my work right the first time all the time. Help them to understand me. Make things clear for the benefit of everybody. Give me courage to learn and be good in this profession you blessed me with. Take my stress away and make me emotionally, mentally and physically healthy. I am doing this for my family and for my professional growth. All these for Your greater glory. Amen.

Hugot Chronicles Vol. 4

Another learning in a hard way experience.

In the real life, some people will say, "I don't care about you as long as I am saved" but there are people who will also say, "what else lacking? I will help you, it's okay."

 Some people will drag you down and some people will pull you up. I'm just grateful that with all the ups and downs I'm experiencing in life, I am still surrounded by good people who will teach me how to hurdle the obstacles. I never thought life could be this hard but I will be strong. I know God is there to witness that my conscience is clear and  that what I only want is to give quality service.

Dear Lord, thank you for always guiding me. Please keep my clients free from harm and me also. Help me keep my presence of mind and confidence so that I can do my job smoothly. I know this journey is difficult but with your help, I know I can get through this. In Jesus name, I pray. Amen.

Hugot Chronicles: Vol. 3

Note:This is my own opinion and not every OFW feel the same way as I am.

Working overseas is very difficult or maybe I am just in a very difficult situation that I’m already very much afraid of being who I am. I never realize what my friend said to me in the first few weeks of my stay here in abroad until this time, that you will not be surprised of other peoples culture,you will be more surprised of the culture of the Filipinos when they are not in the Philippines.

 Truly, I couldn’t fathom why these things are happening. For me it’s just better to keep quit and make the best of what we have. Everything can be solved through dialogue not through banging against each other. I don’t know if this is really how we should survive but I know that this is wrong. Perhaps, I’d rather not be in power if power would only make me wrong anyway. I now appreciate what my parents are trying to impart to us regarding the simple life. But I don’t have regrets. If this is the best way for me to grow up then so be it. I am just deeply praying that  everything will be fine someday and everything will fall in place.

This profession may not be my childhood dream and this job may not be my dream job but because of this day, I was inspired to make a difference in my own little way. I want to radiate to them the love we should have for each other for at the end of the day we’re on the same team, that we don’t have to bully each other for we are not in the battlefield.

To the person who was hurt the most, I’m sorry. I know it wasn’t a mistake. And if ever it was a mistake, it was an honest mistake. Whatever it is, I still want to say sorry. That you were down today. That you became sad today. Our area, perhaps, is the most toxic. But you’re the one who remain calm and honest and loving as a mother. I may not be perfect but I promise to do my best to be the best. To be someone that you can be proud of. Because someday, if I’m already “good enough” in their eyes, I would proudly say that it was all because of you. Because of your motherly nature, that despite all the issues they throw at you,  you remain to be the good person like you’ve always been. Thank you.

Love lots,

Your staff J

convo with self Vol. 1

pang Precious Hearts Romances na mga linya

>Nag walking ka, kasi nga you want to know how terrific your own company can be pero bigla na lang siya lumabas ng dorm at nakita mo siya, OMG ang gwapo niya, ok na sana kaso lumingon siya at nakita ka rin niya. Gosh! Anyare at dito rin pala siya sa compound na to nakatira? Kaya lumakad ka na lang pabalik at ayaw mong makita ka niyang naglalakad mag-isa. Alam na. Crush mo siya! Pero hindi siya matalino... Pero crush mo pa rin siya... haha. yuck! crush mo yon? parang hindi man ýon marunong maligo tas pakape kape lang hindi naman masyadog magaling... Pero crush mo pa rin siya...haha kasi he's some kind of a basketball superstar sa tanggad and he looks so lean and masculine kahit di siya nag gy-gymn. Okay na. hayaan na kitang magka-crush sa kanya. pantasyahin mo ang perfect na siya. pero hindi kayo bagay, huhu. so sad. but make him an inspiration na maging magaling ka sa craft mo. don't talk so much. just surprise them wag kang toxic ha. feeling mo ngayon alam mo na yung crush ng friend mo kasi parehas kayo ng taste. edi wow!

Hugot Chronicles Vol. 2

If you're life as just work, work, work, work, work, work, eat and sleep and you don't have much opportunity for leisure and recreation, watching TV will remind you of how single you are.

I am a TV person. Actually I used to spend more time in TV than in social media, that's why, now that I'm alone in my room, these teleseryes are reminding me how miss having a boyfriend. (ahhhhh) So funny, I laugh at myself. Maybe, this is just brought by quarter life crisis or what. Sometimes, I catch myself looking for "prospects"but I just can't find them here.

I have a friend whose career is a  wedding photographer and I just love his photos so much that someday I want to be in one of those. There's also a store here that displays wedding gowns, and there's this one store also with very affordable wedding souvenirs.

Sometimes, I want to imagine myself planning for my wedding. I already have a friend who is a wedding photographer, who has a wedding car, who could advise me regarding the prices of the resorts, food and stuff. For sure he has a lot of things to say. I already have a peg gown, a peg make-up, shoes and I think I know already where to purchase those invitations and souvenirs. Maybe, one these days I will also write my vow. Chakss. What is this?

I am also planning to buy a house and lot.If I will have a child, at what school will I send him/her? I want my first child to be a boy but of course every child is a blessing.

I never wanted to marry than now. Maybe, I just felt so single here that no one bothers to video chat with me unlike my friends who are in a long distance relationship. Goodness, you know, sometimes, I am so positive that I will meet him somewhere, along the way. Maybe, we can be seatmate in the plane, or we will see each other in one of my great vacay. I'm just so excited to see him. I hope, whoever he is, he's also as giddy as I am for our grand meet up. Maybe, if I meet him, my life would have a clearer direction.

I miss being so kilig for real. Not just because I watch movies or series... hayyss, I know not everyone is lucky enough to find that one true love who will stick with them through thick and thin but I'm positive that in God's perfect time (and that would be next year. I claim it!), I will find him.

Hugot Chronicles Vol. 1

Maybe now, I'd be able to post more not because I'm less busy but because I really have just lots of things to say. I am a very outspoken person. I say what I want to say about myself, about my opinion, about my feelings even if others might say that I'm just so loud. I don't care what other people might say about me.I am not ashamed of the real me for I am just telling the truth and as far as I know, I don't speak just to drag people down. I speak for the common good.But now, I'm working overseas and they say, feelings should be just kept because you do not know other people might just use your words against you at the end of the day.

  Aside from telling to God, since God doesn't answer like humans do, I'd vent out my feelings here. At least here, no one in my workplace would comment against me. I am just doing this to express myself anyway because in real life it seems like I don't have the right to rant. So I'd just write them here in my web space, my haven.  For me, verbalizing feelings is still the best way of saving sanity. So don't be so hard on me.

I received my schedule for this month and I was so sad but I don't have the right to complain so I'd just pray. Haiissst. Life here is just so hard.