Year 2020: Year of Closure and New Beginnings

Yup. I decided to resign. I felt that, I will only be 28 once and at this age, I should have found my lifetime partner already. Getting pregnant should take highest priority as the uterus ages too. I never want to sound desperate but I think so far, this is the most courageous decision I ever made. It took me four years to let go of the place that haunt me and mold me. I feel that I'm a precious gem now. I know what I deserve,and  I don't have to beg it. If they will value me, then I move out. I am faithful. I know that God will lead me to the better place and to the better man. #keepraying

Just like money, I also budget my time. When I'm done with something I move on. Only emotions stick around. Parang amoy ng kusina, it gets into your skin. So my new year resolution is to have closure and new beginnings. Excited to find my one great love, I always imagine myself seeing a hot guy inside the plane or at the airport. But strangers aren't really attractive for me. I don't want to talk to random people also even if they are the ones starting the conversation. I guess, it's true, that love, the more you chase it the more it will elude you.

For the two most significant guy in my life, I hope I can talk to them but if not then I move on. I'm down to my last year of being a hopeless romantic. I messaged my one great love today asking how is he going to spend his Christmas and he said he has duty and he'll be just in the hospital in La Union. Then I also sent a message to my ex boyfriend but he did not respond yet. He's not into social media so I doubt if he will reply soon. If he's going to seenzone me, then I know the answer. This is my resolve, no matter how painful it is, I will no longer look back. My life is not going that way.

Yes, it is sad that the person you used to have late night talks with will now just reply to you with a thumbs up but time will come that you'll also get used to it. Time will also come that another person will also spend late hours with you because he is truly, madly, deeply in love with you and he will never let you go. He will come. Just pray.

Mother is right, when friends grow up, they drift apart and it's okay. Ang importante buhi.

Lastly, may your heart have enough rest, so when the right man comes, you have strong heart to fight.

You exam is set to sail baby. Mag-aral ka at mag-asawa na. 'Yong pwedi mong isama ha. Labyu self.

Have a marvelous New Year 2020

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