Adventure with the Echo Team

Our trip to Mount Tralala and how we managed to be fearless in the pursuit of what sets our soul on fire. :D

Woke up so early, without the clear picture in mind where we are heading. We just brought water, food, chips and sunflower seeds. Wala pa nga akong lipstick.

I risked my split ends for this trip that was kind of ruined because of the failure road map and ambiguous road directions. We wasted so much time, we were not able to go to our planned destinations but looking on the brighter side, here we are able to climb a mountain and learned lessons that we can carry through life. 

This was the only decent picture I got with the DSLR kasi parang ako lang marunong gumamit nun at alanganin kasi ang ganda natin kaya limitado lang ang anggulo :D; nonetheless, masaya talaga ang trip na to. Sana in the future, mas free na kaming mamundok kasi alam mo na, you cannot contain yourself into a room or a place forever and expect to learn and discover so many things.

Our planned road trip turned to be just a plain road trip, like mga 80% nasa daan lang kami. Kaya ang hugot namin ay,"Waze ka ba? Pinaikot-ikot mo lang kasi kami." 

I am slouching like crazy! Taken with the bright lights behind us.
Thoughts at this moment: adulting is not easy, you have to deviate to some norms to discover what more the world can offer. Just know your limits and always stand on your ground.

Disclaimer: I cannot freely post things that I want in social media since I am in the Middle East so I'm gonna name things here using 'codes'. I am pretty sure that there is a very slim chance for you to be deployed were I got deployed but this is just to show you that life in the Middle East is not that totally bad.

 Taken inside the mall where I enjoyed a lot of items on sale. Aside from Bundok Tralala, this was the best place I enjoyed the most because the shopaholic was so alive.

P.S. 

This trip was kind of a secret since we are deeply discouraged to go on a long trip but praise God we were able to go home safe and sound and I was also able to buy good things like my bag, Zey and my Lee Cooper shoe. Things I wouldn't be able to buy in the 'Bato Bato Peak'. #

TWENTY SEVEN

Things I've Learned in Life Now That I am 27

1. Work Hard, Pray Harder

---I'm the kind of person who always do her best because she wants to be proud of her own work. But keeping the bar high is not easy and sometimes stressful. There are things in life that are out of our control especially in the medical field. So lift up everything to God and he will lead you every step of the way. Say a little prayer each time you start a task, it will keep you confident. *wink

2. No matter how you feel, get up dress up and show up

---No matter how happy we are with the job that we have, there are times that we feel down. We cannot explain what we feel, just tired, extremely tired sometimes, but as they say, sleeping cannot pay your bills and it will no way boost up your resume so always find your motivation and wake up each day with a smile. You are blessed.

3. Make friends with genuine people, they are good for your heart.

--- As we grow older, we will realise that people just come and go and we cannot keep the ones we love beside us all the time. Having a big circle of friends is nice but sometimes it's not healthy; mostly when you tell your secrets and problems to the wrong people. I used to enjoy the company of large group of people, but now I enjoy being with just the few ones, those that I can only trust. Just in case you're afraid that people will betray you, always keep in mind that what matters most is that you yourself is real. Don't lose your true self. Be honest even when it's not the trend.

4. A bad system will always beat a good person.

---Oftentimes, we get stress at work because of the management and not because of the job itself nor the salary. We breakdown, we curse, we get irritated and upset. If it's no longer healthy for you, leave. You deserve to be happy. No management is perfect in this world but choose what you can tolerate. You matter.

5. You do not need other people's validation. You are enough.

---For once, we want to be acknowledged. Examine yourself clearly and know your talents and limits. It will assure you that you know what you are doing and you are doing it correctly. You are free to ask help from appropriate people, they will help you grow.  Whether they acknowledge you or not shouldn't stress you, do everything to impress your creator not them. 

6. Fall in love while you're young and never be afraid.

---I first fell in love at the age of 16. At that time, I wasn't really sure with my feelings and I was afraid of getting pregnant early (slippery slope, yeah!). I had so many inhibitions and I weighed that my dreams are more important than the one I love. Ten years after, my love grew for that man but he changed his heart and decided to let go of me. I realized that love is rare and it doesn't happen to anyone. Reaching your dreams is important but don't get so obsessed with it that you let other things that can make you happy pass you by. As they said, what is success if you have no one to share it with. At the end of the day, your diploma cannot hug you back. Even with lots of acknowledgment, you will still feel empty when you get home or when you wake up at 3AM. It feels different when you have someone to share your day with or dream with. (wow matured na ako)

After my first heartbreak, I resolved that the next time I will fall in love, I will be true to myself and love without inhibitions, I will fight for him without inhibitions for now I know how painful it is to be unloved (the term tho). I was hurt, but I never had regrets, for now at least it my consolation to myself.

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Paano Mo Malalaman na Nagmamahal Ka

Paano mo malalaman kung ikaw ay in love?

Para sa mga taong utak ang pinaiiral kaysa puso, mga sampung taon pa nila mapagtatanto na nagmamahal nga sila. Yung tipong medyo huli na ang lahat at maraming panahon na ang nasayang at lumipas saka sila magigising sa katotohanan.

Signs and Symptoms

1. Napapanaginipan mo Siya.

Sabi nila, kapag napapanaginipan mo ang isang tao, ang ibig sabihin nun ay iniisip ka niya. Maaaring isang araw, nagising ka nang napanaginipan mo siya, pagbukas mo ng messenger mo, nag message siya sa iyo at nagpadala ng litrato tungkol sa mga life struggles niya, kinaumagahan nakita mo sa timeline niya yung pictures na sinend niya sa iyo kasama yung pictures nila ng girlfriend niya; well, hindi ka naman na inform na may jowa pala siya at bakit pa siya nagkuwento ng mga paghihirap niya sa iyo eh may jowa pala siya, sa sobrang inis mo, sinabi mo sa sarili mo na hindi naman maganda yung jowa niya, maputi lang, pero affected ka at inunfriend mo siya; nagkahugot ka bigla sa lahat ng maputing hindi naman kagandahan kahit wala naman silang ginagawa sa iyo. :D

2. Naaalala Mo Siya sa mga Movies na Napapanood Mo.

Ang Kwento Nating Dalawa
I'm Drunk I Love You
Meet Me St. Gallen

Ilan lang ito sa mga pelikulang umantig sa iyong puso. (Wow. Lalim) Tinamaan ka sa mga hugot movies pero wala ka namang matinong love life. Lalo na iyong mga pelikulang mahal ng kaibigan mo yung taong mahal mo (karibal siya, bes), mahal mo siya at mahal ka niya pero friendzone kayo, mahal ka niya pero hindi ka niya kayang panindigan at ipaglaban, mahal ka niya pero hindi niya naman sinabi, feeling mo lang yun kasi yun ang pinaramdam niya sa iyo (paasa siya, ganun) pero ayaw mong mag assume kaya pinilit mong i deadma na lang (kaya minumulto ka ng damdamin mong pilit mong pinatay), mahal mo siya at mahal ka niya pero the universe did not conspire for the two of you kaya hindi naging kayo (sisihin ang universe)

The Gifted
--- ito yung movie na... (nakakahiya pero all out na 'to) akalain mo umiyak ka sa eroplano nung pinapanood mo 'to kasi sa isip mo kung sana magkakaanak kayo magiging gifted rin yong anak niyo kasi parehas kayong talented plus may mga intellectual conversations pa kayo na kayo lang ang magka wavelength

3. Kapag malungkot ka mahilig kang mag dwell sa mga Hugot Songs tulad ng

Sa Kanya by Sharon Cuneta
Hanggang Ngayon by Kyla
Steep by Laureen Christy
Out of Reach by Gabrielle (Pinaka feel mo)
Hanggang Kailan by Michael Pangilinan

dagdagan pa ng mga OST
Hanggang Dito na Lang by Jimmy Bondoc
Burnout by Sugarfree

Masyado kang overwhelmed sa mga kantang 'to, paulit ulit mong pinakikinggan sa YouTube kasi
gusto mong sinasaktan ang sarili mo.

Pagkatapos ng isang dekada, desidido ka na ng sabihin sa kanya na mahal mo siya kahit di ka sigurado kung saan hahantong iyon. Gusto mo lang palayain ang puso mo dahil baka lang naman that feeling was haunting you because his part in your life story deserved an end. Ahhh... ang sarap magmahal pero ang saket. Kung sana ang pag-ibig parang dugo na pwedi mong i extract at i transfuse sa iba para ibang tao na lang ang mahalin mo. May mga tao kasing alamat, parang ikaw, di marunong magmahal ng iba kahit pa yong ibang taong yon ay kaya kang mahalin ng higit pa sa deserved mo.

5. Malalaman mong mahal mo ang taong iyon kung siya lang ang laging laman ng puso't isip mo. Kung siya lage ang gusto mong pagkwentuhan ng mga masasaya at malulungkot na kabanata ng buhay mo, mga pangarap mo at great milestones mo kahit may jowa ka na o may jowa pa siya, siya pa rin. Siya lang. Kahit hindi ka pa sigurado sa future niyo kapag naging kayo, kahit mas malayo pa ang mararating mo ng wala siya, babalik ka pa rin para sa kanya. Para lang makita siya at msabing minahal mo siya.

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Recall, Day Off and Dealing with the New Staff

I got recalled, not only once but twice. The first was at 6pm when I am supposed to come at 3. When I arrived at the hospital, everything was full of peace and serenity. Then they asked me why I got recalled when there are so many staffs. I said, I don't know about them (the heads). The second, I was supposed to have day off cause I got recalled already, and then my matron came to my room and told me that I'm on duty.  Oh yeah, I can accept recalls but not on times when you least expect them, not in times when you already set your mind to sleep. I was so teary eyed going to the hospital wanted to drop all things I hold and shout to every person I meet because I'm so pissed off but I need to compose myself. Crossing my fingers #thistooshallpass. My male shift in charge thanked me for coming and letting them (the heads) cut my off.

I got my pending off and on the last night duty, one of the heads told me that I am off today cause I am supposed to have nine offs this month and yey I am so happy because no more night duty before my vacation.

These new staffs, yes, I've been there, in there place, adjusting, but in my time, I listened a lot. They are so hard headed I don't want to work with them. When you tell them what to do, they answer you back. The next time were on the same shift, I just want to tell them, no I don't want to work with you right now so just back off.

Why ask questions and ask for help when the answers you found and the help you get don't even register to your "learned corners". Every time, you will ask stupid questions? Young lady, you are amazing. You never learned.

New staffs, I hope your perfectly fine when I come back from vacation, so I could rely on you. Even if your going to leave soon, make sure your doing good in your job and don't put others in jeopardy. You know your seniors and responsible for you too so you better listen to them. We are not perfect, we made mistakes too, we don't want you to make mistakes that we did that is why we're teaching you, but if you do not want to learn, it's your call. It's just that, it's good to work with smart and hardworking people because you get to go home early and the days are just fine.

ISLA JARDIN 2017

Movie Review: Ang Kwento Nating Dalawa (The Story of Us That Never Was)

Guess what??? I've got some extra time so I was able to extract some energy to watch movies these past few days and Indie Films like rom com movies are really getting into my nerves.

Oo na, wala kasi akong ka skype, ka chat or whatever. Apart from my salary and my wee moments, only movies gives me the giddy feeling. And since, I have been through a lot in life (char) I just thought that maybe I should watch the real once, not the typical happy ending so predictable kind of film.

At heto na nga, nanood ako ng Ang Kwento Nating Dalawa (The Story of Us That Never Was)

Spoiler Alert!

It's a story of a cinematographer and a script writer and how there complicated, wrong relationship started and ended.

It was so raw but so real. I didn't grow up in Manila but when I was applying for work abroad, I always ride on trains for faster traspos. The artistic views  LRT were nostalgic it remind of my lost moments while processing my application. You know na, I've C minus in navigation.

Truth is I've got nothing much to say since I'm not really a movie critic. I just find it a vey nice mivie so I decided to post it here.  Luke was handsome and Kate was cute and though they are friends with the main characters they don't cross the lines and they just ramained,there--- listening and supporting their friends no matter what.

photo not mine

 This is  a good watch. That's it. #

Partings Never Easy

So this is my first entry for the year 2018 and the long hiatus is because I am a senior now even though I only worked for two years in this hospital.  My seniors resigned already and only few could become shift in charges and that is why I always work in yellow and red zones, I am becoming a shift in charge more that twice a month and also a narcotic in charge. Apart from that I also had an orientee and I am just so happy that she already finished her evaluation. God bless her and I hope she learned a lot from me.

Writing for me is liberating and it saves my sanity. I am in the verge  of darkness now not just because my menstruation is coming but because my friends are leaving and only the two of us will be left in ER. The new staffs have their own life that I think I can't be friends with them as much as I became a friend to fresh gurls.

So yeah, the other day they had farewell party and whe it was time for my friends to speak, I just cried. I was kind of ashamed that I was so emotional at that time but I just can't help it. I cannot imagine myself attending the meetings without someone who will remind me. I now have to check my own schedules and duty changes. I always look forward for the day that we'd work together so I have someone to walk to the hospital and go home with. You know they are you're friends so they will help you when your job is not yet finished, they will give you food if your hungry, and they will cheer you up when you're sad or lonely. They are the ones you could share your rants and raves with. They are annoyed sometimes but they will just listen to you because they love you. haha. Amazing that's just how love works.

Actually I don't want them to go because I still need someone to eat ice cream with, shop with and sing videoke with, vent my stress onto. I have learned a lot from BLS, ACLS and PALS training because of them. They are very hardworking as much as smart. Now that I need to renew my licenses I need to do it alone in a mature way. mature way? haha. Kakaiyak sobra. I will miss us but it's time to go.

All I can say is that, thank you for the memories, for the deepest friendships, for the kindest thoughts. You'll be forever in my heart, FRESH GURLS.

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