Every girl is dreaming of true love though not every person believes in it. There are also some who are just afraid to feel it because of the fact that it really hurts at the end when relationship doesn't work. If I'd be asked if I believe in true love, yes I do. But like other girls, I’m also afraid to get hurt. I’d prefer an unreciprocated, one sided love. Like a man who loves me too much but I don't love him much or the other way around. Hence, I wouldn't expect a happy ever after and cry like a stupid.
Actually I’m in love, not just today but every day. Yes it’s true. I'm in love with my life and all the good things around me. But no the kind of "romantic" kind of love. Just like the love that a girl like me (in my age) should feel. Even at a young age, I've been always waiting for a guy to love and care for me but when I admire someone and that someone also expresses his admiration to me, I’d rather go away from him. Coward? heist. Because I know it’s not the right time yet. Pwedi hanggang MU lang? As in Malabong Usapan?
Even if the feeling is mutual, I’m afraid that the guy I like will just take advantage of my feelings and just hurt me. Now, maybe you’re confused with my concept of true love, since I've told you a while ago that I’d rather have an unreciprocated love. How do I avoid getting hurt? When I got a crush on a guy I make sure he doesn't notice. I don't tell him too. It’s up to him to conclude. Also I'd rather want that a guy who likes me won't tell me he likes me. That way I won't expect too much and I won't feel awkward moments.
When you're in a relationship you have to consider the other person when you make decisions. And you also have to consider what other people might think about the both of you. Some times when you're so much in love other people are so happy for both of you that when you break up they're the one who gets hurt most and take long time to move on. Kesyu bagay daw kayo. Tsk.
Bad thing about me, when a guy who likes me (and i also like) becomes sweet to me I transform into someone super rude or super nice or super saiyan. GrrRRR. I get irritated easily I don't know why. Nag-iinarte. I’m really weird and confusing. Yeah, it’s true. It would be just fine for me if you’ll judge me that way because sometimes I don’t also understand myself. Maybe, it’s because of the emptiness inside that only he could fill. I'm longing for someone so strong and courageuos to make me feel loved and secure. Sad thin is, I've been waiting for so long that I feel like a damn hell crazy already. It sad to be alone sometimes but no matter what happens, I will continue to hope and pray that he would come.What date? I don’t know. I’ll just let fate decide. I’ll just let it to be in God’s hands.
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