UPSET

If you have issues about expressing negative feelings online just press ALT tab. But if you're also crazy like me just scroll down. This is CRAZY. I am going incredibly CRAZY. Arggghhhh. I'm  letting go of the negative vibes through this blog knowing that through this i'll find relief and hoping that you might also learn from me. 

"He who learns but does not think is lost. He who thinks but does not learn is in great danger."-unknown 

And I'm in GREAT danger.

That photo above is a the cover of my notebook way back high school. That only costs 8 pesos. So cheap isn't it? Yes because I wasn't born rich. Anyways, no matter how cheap that is that's so dear to me because that reminds me of who I am. Someone who keeps on thinking but doesn't learn, Tamad kasi. 

I'm feeling upset because I handled a patient with a cardiac case. I've handled a patient with the same case before so I must be good at it already but in turned out the other way. I forgot the procedure. My emotions and frustrations went high and my mind went nowhere to be found. I was so upset that I was nearly messing up during the procedure. It's because I never REVIEW and I'm blaming myself.

It was NEVER easy to be a nurse. NEVERRRRR!!!!! But that's the challenging part of being a nurse. I'm just crossing my finger that the cardio won't get mad at me because of my craziness. 

Lesson learned. So today I make a promise to read my notes every night and not just dedicate my time to 50 Shades of Freedom. (Who read fifty shades? A movie will be released next year!)

To all the nurses out there, my salute to all of you. The art of emotional control,of not showing your frustrations to your patient so the patient wouldn't worry is greatly a skill to be learned. How I wish I'll learn them fast.